And then it rained.

[tigtogiba34]

I had time to think about my outburst and rationalize it and realize that in reality it's DEREK FUCKING JETER and like half the planet will flock to Cooperstown to see him get put in and that is way too large of a gathering far too soon. Not only that- the surviving Hall Of Famers all come for the Ceremony as well and I'm sorry to all that have already perished from this, but I really do not wanna see Hank Aaron or Willy Mays pass away from it now either.

I'm so numb to the numbers, Governor Cuomo was getting into a thousand a day at one point for just the City!! I just cannot imagine even 100 people. 1000 people dead in one day. I just. Gotta stop thinking. Bless their souls.

Anyways yeah so my outburst, I paid in pain today- it rained throughout the night and into today and my teeth are the worst with my fibro-rain-flares. My surgery was awesome that didn't really bother me at all. The rest of me however didn't want to move. So I didn't. I was one with the recliner and I left the laptop on the side on the floor and stayed unplugged for a bit.

Totally hoping at PT tomorrow I will get my okay for swimming and the tub soon. The scab is getting smaller and smaller as I am not touching it! My morale will get the biggest boost in the world to have my baths back.

This post pretty much personifies my thoughts lately- all over the place, constantly changing, unable to focus on anything for more than 5 seconds and longing for my tub.
Also whiny about baseball. Understanding that people are dying. But still- Melissa centric with my wants.

Comments

[weebleswobble]

its alright to miss the things you miss and to be unhappy that everything is cancelled and want it back to normal. you understand why, and voicing frustration is totally allowed.

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

Hope you get permission for more aqua pursuits! :-) *hugs*

[scream-queen.livejournal.com]

I can totally relate to the thoughts jumping around. I call it "butterfly brain".

[haebin.livejournal.com]

I am sorry that you are in pain and that you don't feel good. :( I am sending you Light & Love.
♥

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

I totally get that scattered brain feeling...there is nothing that seems to calm it these days.
Hoping you get your baths back soon and yay for the scab shrinking. I have a pretty long scar from my hip surgery last year....my badge of honour I call it.

It is ok to feel whiny!

[pink-suedeshoes.livejournal.com]

Things are so up in the air recently! Hang in there - it will eventually get better sometime! <3

[ghost-light.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

You are totally allowed to be frustrated and mopey about things. Our circumstances suck, but we're all sucking together, and we'll get through this together.

[lindahoyland.livejournal.com]

Hugs. I think we all are focussed on what upsets us the most.