My mental health is more important than my presence on social media;

[tigtogiba34]

I finally up and did it, I deactivated my facebook account.
Apparently I stepped on a few toes not being completely obliterated that a basketball player perished. I was like okay it's sad but my life is moving on? Yeah so I brought up the fact he was also a rapist. People were like yo he just died he was a father, husband etc etc etc and I was like yeah and a rapist. I'm not even going into the rest. So I might lose friends for speaking about it; oh well *hunched shoulders emoji*

People that should know me, at any phase in my life. I have never EVER been a basketball fan. I'm also not a morbid mother fucker obsessed with death either. But celebrities are not immortal and they can pass on too. Bet you a lot of other people died yesterday too but they weren't Air Kobe's so they went on unnoticed.

Yeah so, I'm leaving my facebook off for a week, maybe longer. As it is deactivated howevs I still have messenger so I can still talk to people even though talking to people is the last thing I wish to do right now.

Friday the 24th was the Three Year Anniversary of my car accident that threw my life into beautiful chaos. I've had a couple days now to reflect upon how bad it was, how far I've come and where I'm heading... to the knife again to get a new hip yehaw!!

The one thing that pissed me off though, I went to check my author instagram... piece of crap that did all this to me had followed me, are you fucking serious? But I will admit, it lit a fire under my ass to get working more on my book and get it out, just remembering he does exist in this world and welp block was used no worries there but the audacity? is that the word I want?

Finally moving all my files off this computer before it really shits the bed. I got lucky after two restarts my semagic is running now- but yeah that is how I work it now things don't run I do a restart and that will get really annoying real fast, they are working on ordering my new one for me. But yes needs to save my preciouses. ( I go into Gollum mode sometimes and talk in we person and my)

How has everyone else been
Me with my I'm BACK
then this weekend hit and I'm GONE

Hesitating making this public but it's how I feel so why not?

Comments

[zvezda.livejournal.com]

Facebook is a really strange place, and I agree with what you said. I honestly feel like people get less worked up over mass shootings than celebrity deaths. A lot of people have been getting uptight over mentioning he was an accused rapist, which is hypocritical because the same people were also shouting in favor the me too movement. No one is consistent in anything. :\

[meathiel]

I sometimes think about leaving FB ... but then it's a way to keep I touch with family and friends. Meh.

[sweetmeow]

I had no idea about his rape. Ugh.

We have this tendency to raise those who have just died to "god status". Well -- we also need to be prepared for an astounding fall from that godlike place.

I also sometimes think that we are in such a divisive place, that we long for something - - anything - - to bind us together. This death kind of did that. We might not agree on politics, but -- oh yeah -- we can all rally together by loving on a dead athlete.

I've also learned one thing about Facebook - - do not disagree with any one else's post. If you do, keep it to yourself. My postings have become increasingly bland, non controversial things - like silly cat memes or nature photos or places I've been. Plus - I'm not posting as much anymore, either. It's like everyone is itching for a fight, but I'm not gonna play.

[scream-queen.livejournal.com]

I must admit I knew nothing about Kobe Bryant (American sports pretty much unreported in the UK), but when I read about the sexual crimes he was accused of... yeah, all the sad posts started to leave a very bitter taste.

Audacity is a good word... and he has it alright. What a complete loser.

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

He WAS a rapist. That's just a fact. *hug*.

Yep; audacity definitely covers it! *hugs*.

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[zimtkeks.livejournal.com]

Happy rebirthday!

[christinafairy.livejournal.com]

I don't like how the news says "Kobe Bryant, his daughter and 7 other people" like the other people are not as important. I assume they're not famous but they still matter

And I was thinking "wasn't he a rapist?"

I no longer go on Facebook. It's lame. ;)

[lyssa027.livejournal.com]

My life is so much better without Facebook in it, and it's been almost a month without it now, and I've never been happier

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

Good for you!

I only keep FB because that's where our granddaughter's pictures are posted. Otherwise, I skim it but don't really post a whole lot. I guess it's good for keeping in touch with a few people I love, though. But I sometimes wish it didn't exist.

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

While Kobe's death was tragic, I agree with you; it's tragic when anyone dies in an accident like that.

I also agree with your 'wtf' re: that person following you on Insta. Weird.

[incertum-verum.livejournal.com]

He has some fucking nerve following you on instagram. What a fucking asshole!

[domluver.livejournal.com]

Told you how I feel about the Kobe thing, tragic it happened, he had an amazing career but sadly was a shit person. People were still talking about it at work today. I guess it comes with working in a Sporting Store. Shit man we were talking about it too when were getting ready to leave there was a shooting in a South Carolina School, plus that fire at a marina that killed people and destroyed housing but it's all Kobe.

I just still can't believe that fucker had the audacity to even add you on there. What a fucking prick. If I ever see him, he's getting run over.

I almost forgot you deactivated your Facebook, I was going to tag you because MVP was facing Rey Mysterio on RAW and I was like well shit, I'm too lazy to send this in messenger. To be fair though I was at work and on my phone so it would've taken more effort :D

[gneu.livejournal.com]

I'm more concerned about the virus in China than the early death of a celebrity, and I'm not into basketball, but this is America and how we respond. But also in America is how rape is classified as a he said/she said thing. Committing adultery is not rape, nor is it a crime except in the military. Can you confirm he's a rapist? If so, then you need to plug that label onto every male in America.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

It is and people I think that have my back turn on me in 2.0 seconds and I was all WHAT?! So then I was like welp my mental health is more important click click click oh look at that, it's off and I won't be tempted to check it because I turned it all the way off.
Yeah but he was Kobe, the GOAT, so it doesn't matter obvi *rolls eyes back into head*

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

I haven't officially left, just deactivated my account for a week, unless I enjoy it too much then I might make it longer, who knows. So far I'm going strong without it! I really only used it to waste time and post nonsense, now I can do that on my instagram.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

Yeah I remember it because I was the same age as the accuser at the time. So it had to be 2003 when I was 19. And I was like what a sleeze. Even back then mostly MEN were all the whore he didn't do it blah blah, but he issued an apology and everything that he didn't realize it was not consensual and all that so yeah when it's not consensual what is it then? RAPE.

With this one apparently he was a really good basketball player and that is all people are choosing to remember about him so... I mean sure I was in shock to hear about it, I said a quick prayer for all involved, and then I moved on- like all these people posting they were sick to their stomachs and such, nope sorry his passing had no effect on me like that whatsoever sorry. I was not that invested in his life at all.

I'm more on board with mourning the other people on the helicopter with him, so if that counts as mourning him too then so be it? More caring for his wife that lost the daughter and husband.

Oh yeah. Facebook is cray. Tis why I stepped back for a week, afraid I might enjoy it too much though and stay away longer, we shall see.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

Yeah but mentioning it right after his death was not a good move on my part- people are like WHY MUST YOU MENTION IT NOW HE JUST DIED, and I was all BUT PEOPLE ARE ACTING LIKE HE'S A FUCKING SAINT AND I WANNA TAKE IT DOWN A NOTCH. So like I can see both sides but yeah I was like people are wrongggg. Whether he did it or not none of us were there besides him and her. But the fact there was an accusation at all, he could have, more than likely he might have gotten away with it more than once before this one wasn't going to let him because of who he was ya know?

Yeah. Block is a good thing for fuckers like that.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

That one got publicity, who knows how many others there were? *hugsback*

Block is a blessing. *hugsbacksomemore*

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

Thank you darling!

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

I've seen things with their names since. Yeah when it first happened it was just him. Then two hours later, his daughter was with him... then the numbers kept changing. But now it is nine total I think they are firm on that one, and one of them was the pilot.

Everyone seems to forget that. Oh apparently there is a petition out there to get the NBA logo changed to a silhouette of him in it? Like come ONNNNNN already.

Ha that's what I'm afraid of I will take this time off and not want to go back, we shall see? so far so good without!

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

All the power to you sister! Has your book total increased a lot?

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

I do miss my Sister's daily photos of my niece, that might be the one thing I go back for- doesn't mean I need to post every day myself though.

I think that might be how my return goes too... I am really liking not wasting my time there, and getting back to livejournal the way I used to! ♥

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

Yup pretty much. And if you sit and think about it if there was one accuser back then (2003 I was 19 I remember it well because I was the same age as the accuser) this was all before #metoo. She was the one person that did come forward how many others could he have done it to as well and they didn't come forward because of WHO HE WAS? Or on the other hand maybe she was a "just a slut looking for money" like some men say ugh it hurt to type that and it's awful to think that way.

Yeah they finally have names for them now three days later. *hugsback* Yes I am more in mourning for the mother that lost her daughter first, husband second. Then all the other families.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

When the media turns it into "Kobe's Helicopter crash" not the other 8 souls that lost their lives too, celebrity ranking over all, urgh still urking me, I will get over myself eventually- Like I said not a basketball fan, sure I know who he was and that he was a really good player and was in the Olympics and shit but rrgh it was like Michael Jackson died all over again

Block is a blessing ♥

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

He had however long until I noticed, then I blocked him, now he gone!
I wonder if he'll read my book?

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

I didn't hear about the school thing! or the fire but that is prolly a local thing that wouldn't make the news up here? But yeah it's Tuesday and he was still second story on the World News. Sorry I am more worried about the Corona Virus that what caused his copter crash- yeah I sound heartless but what good does knowing what caused the crash do? They will still be dead?

Block is a blessing. Take a number?

Oops, I'll prolly get it back when the week is over and just not post anymore or something to prevent fights.

Meanwhile, I got a Finn Balor dvd set at Walmart today, like the guy had to go back to the backroom to get it for me so it was no longer supposed to be sold on the floor so I got red carpet treatment, I was late to PT filling out a customer comment card for him seeing as he went above and beyond for me.

[tigtogiba34.livejournal.com]

Yeah that virus is getting scary! And they are running out of masks now? Friggin' America right? Hadta see if Trump tweeted about it, he did of course just about Kobe (and Gianna) nothing about the other passengers. The only two people can confirm the rape are him and the accuser (which are now just the accuser but how honest was she to begin with- I hate having to question another female but when it comes to a celeb you have to sometimes??- but I was the same age so I remember it all unfolding it was 2003 when I was 19) which I mentioned this all in my facebook fight that caused me to deactivate it, hence the cross out and I'm not even going into the rest part... but also how many other women could there have been that were silenced because of WHO he was and the resources he had to shut them up? we will never know at this point. May they all rest in peace and just get it off my news and focus on other stuff please?

[domluver.livejournal.com]

I didn't either, but it happened at Coker College and one kid from the lacrosse team died. The fire was actually in Alabama but still considered local I guess here. But killed 8 people from what I remember seeing. But I never saw it on the National News, I think it was on WIS or even on WIS Facebook. Nah it's completely understandable.

No worries, stay away as long as you like, I haven't plenty of ways to get in contact with you.

Balor had a DVD set? I never even realized, but that's great!

[incertum-verum.livejournal.com]

I'm glad he's gone.

I wish I could believe he'd read it and feel remorse but I don't give him that much credit.

[lindahoyland.livejournal.com]

Hugs. I personally find it rather odd that people get so upset about celebrity deaths. I've never heard of the man and felt sad a little girl died which seemed worse. I only grieve for people I knew.

[wookiemonster.livejournal.com]

Ah. I was scared for a moment that maybe I'd offended you somewhere and was blocked...

But yeah...totally grok where you're coming from. Pretty much, too many sports stars have some sort of allegation like that against them. :/

[lyssa027.livejournal.com]

Not really? I have certain times when I read books, I tend to read them at school, during meals, and on vacations. But I have gone to bed a lot earlier and gotten much more sleep and had less anxiety keeping me up at night since quitting Facebook ;)

[proceedcyclone.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't say that celebrity deaths are completely unrelatable, but I'm surprised sometimes by the sheer vastness of the "effect"; people that had never shown any interest in that celebrity or his/her field still posting about it. In this particular case, I think some people may have felt the tragedy because Kobe's daughter died, too, but so few posts/articles mentioned that there was another child who died, too.

Is it clear on there what you're writing about? I mean, that'd be a pretty clear hint that you don't really want to hear from him/let him see what you're up to.

-Tia